You would think that after all the times I have had to attend court with April and her foolish acts. I would be used to it by now. But like every parent when your child is on the line. You worry and loose sleep. You pray and ask God once again to dig your child out of the mess they have gotten into.

The thing is...Once you open your heart up to a child and you begin to love them. No matter how bad things get. That love never changes.

That is what I find so precious about adoption and foster care. You can love a child as deeply as if they are a part of your soul. When they hurt you hurt. When they smile it lights up your world.

No matter what you always want what is best for them.
With children like April what you think is best for them is often not the case.

She knows we love her and we have forgiven her a thousand times. So she is able to disrespect us as parents. The head of DHS talked to me and he told me
that April needed to be grounded from us. To let her know family is a luxury not something she can take advantage of. I now believe he was right on target.

One more night that sleep is hard to find and one more court date in the morning. By the time she gets out of detention or whatever this time she will be 17. At which point she says she is moving out and I am now fine with that. I am not going to feed into her drama. If that is what she wants. All I have asked of her is to not call me when she is hungry or cold because with my health issues I cant afford to worry about her.

Which you know I will anyway. She has been mine since the day I first laid eyes on her and we adopted each other. It's like a new ride at an amusement park. You just grab hold and hang on for dear life until the ride is over. Such is parenting a bi polar teenage daughter.