It has been a busy fall for my family. We had some home improvements done that just lasted to long. One project is still not finished which is delaying the beginning of a project that should have been started last week. Money is running low.

It seems like everyone I know is pregnant or have recently had a baby. So I have baby books and craft projects coming out my ears.

My lovely daughter April ran away and just called and wants to come back home again.

DHS is pressuring us to take her back in since she is a special needs teen. Against the advise of a police officer who recently told her she could not step foot on our property again. Due to the many threats she was making in one of her rages.

For the first time in four years I had to take a Nitro pill for chest pain. So today I am off to the Cardiologist.

About the only thing I have enjoyed lately is loving my preemie grand baby Jadyn. He is three weeks and 2 days old now. He has gained 9 ounces.
He and Angela have been the center of my world.

I knew when we adopted our children that it would be stressful so that does not bother me at all. What bothers me is when no one learns from the struggles they go through. I have always known that if I'm in the midst of the flames and things feel like they are raging around me. I have a lesson to learn in what comes from the Choas.

I may feel like I am standing alone some times. But I know the Sun above me is enough to make me want to stretch higher and touch its warmth and bask in the reality that God loves me.

I have been reading a Sylvia Browne book. Whom I adore and love to listen to when she is on Montel.
I know I could never afford a visit or a reading.
But I think she is just like the prophets in the bible. I know I have passed a few of my own exit points and chose to stay here with my children and family. God has been gracious and allowed me that.
But boy would I love to know the purpose of all this
stress that seems to find me.

My love for my adopted children and grand children has kept me filled with the desire to live longer and watch them build a beautiful life.

So I'm off to get my ticker checked and find out if I'm going to survive another scene from the dramatic book of life. Keep good thoughts and if you know any good stress relievers.....share the information.
I will try anything at this point except Yoga. I'm to out of shape to fit into those positions lol.